For a variety of reasons, I’ve been a bit introspective yesterday and today. That lead me to do some searching online for Turner Syndrome forums and message boards. The literally dozens of comments I came across from women with T.S. talking about never quite feeling like they fit in at school or with groups of coworkers amazed me. I never really felt like I fit in at school… always felt like I was just on the fringe of each clique or group of students. As an adult I’ve felt the same way at work with groups of coworkers. And I just chalked it up to a fairly normal dose of insecurity. But wait a minute… I have every reason to feel a bit different. I DO have something about me that makes me very different than most of the women in the world. I was diagnosed with Turner Syndrome at the age of 13. It only occurs in 1 in 2,000 to 2,500 females. In a nutshell, it’s a chromosomal abnormality that leaves a female with one of their two X chromosome either partially or completely missing. The hallmarks of it are short stature and infertility due to the lack of ovary development. There are also a whole host of other possible symptoms but I’ve been fairly lucky that the only one I have is some hearing loss. Well, that’s what I thought until today. Is it just possible that the feelings of not quite fitting in are part of the T.S.? Very possible, especially if the few dozen women I read comments from online today are any indication. And there have been many times when I’ve had a vague feeling someone just doesn’t really like me, but couldn’t quite put my finger on why I thought that. I couldn’t give any specific example of anything the person had done or said to make me feel that way. And do you know what I read today? On the MayoClinic.com website I read the following listed as a symptom of T.S.: “Difficulty in social situations, such as problems understanding other people’s emotions or reactions.” Wow. There could be an explanation for my feelings other than insecurity? Today is the first time in my life I’ve ever considered T.S. as being a cause of those feelings. It’s definitely an interesting … and refreshing… thing to consider. From the time of diagnosis at age 13 until my mid 20’s my life seemed to be all about the T.S. for the most part. Learning to accept what it meant to me, doctor’s appointments to try to get the hormone replacement therapy doses just right, doctor’s appointments to make sure my heart and kidneys were fine, and so on. But after that, for about the past 20 years, I’ve more or less ignored it. I’ve just accepted it is something I have and will have the rest of my life and there’s no changing it. Now I have 20 years more life experience and wisdom to use to go back and reassess what having this syndrome means to me.
If it’s possible to have a perfect day, today has been one. In so many ways and on so many levels. Where to start? I went hiking this morning up a butte near my house. It’s about 2,500 feet high and really beautiful. A year .. and 35 lbs… ago I attempted this butte and made it halfway up before I had turn around and come back down because I was too short of breath to continue. Today I went 3/4 of the way up before I chickened out and turned around and came back down because the trail was too muddy. It’s a very steep trail. But 3/4 of the way up I wasn’t short of breath at all! What an improvement over a year ago. And then the sun continued to shine instead of the rain starting which had been forecasted. And I found some new sweats that are ridiculously soft and comfortable. And I’ve been eating good food choices all day … which has kept my blood sugar absolutely perfect all day long. This evening I’m going to hang out with my oldest niece. That should be a fabulous way to end a perfect day. I’m just feeling so happy and healthy today that I wanted to share that. :)
This is my sweet Oliver boy doing what he does best… sneaking a nap on my bed. :) He seems to think it’s as comfortable as I do.
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There are several (and I do mean SEVERAL) wild turkeys in my back yard… and neighborhood. They don’t seem to be scared of anything. The other day I was out walking and came across this trio of turkeys meandering across the street. I had to laugh and grab a few shots of them. Enjoy!
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Have you ever had a day… week… month… when you were really aware of just how blessed your life is? I’ve been feeling that way for most of the past year and a half since I moved back to Oregon. And even more so the past week or so, for some unknown reason. I just am so happy with my life… the good and the bad. Sure, I was diagnosed with diabetes in November. But it’s made me healthier in the long run by forcing me to make some serious lifestyle changes. And with those changes, my diabetes has been well controlled. I have a loud, zany, close, loving family. I have terrific friends who are very supportive and caring. I have a career that I am truly proud of and I find challenging and it offers me all kinds of opportunities. I live in a wonderfully beautiful and fun city that I enjoy. I have a place to live that’s warm and cozy. I always have enough food in my kitchen that I never go hungry. I have a car that runs well that is paid off. All of these are blessing for which I’m grateful. My life really is blessed.
I received an interesting and exciting e-mail today. I have been invited to go along to either Guatemala or Chile this coming fall on a mission trip. There were two co-leaders for the team on my last trip to Guatemala in October. They are each separately leading teams at about the same time this year and I’ve been invited to join either one of them. I definitely want to go, but need to give some thought to which team I’d rather join. On the one hand, I have been to Guatemala three times now and fallen in love with the country and the people and the culture. But on the other hand, I have been there three times already and it might be a nice change to visit a different country this time and see a different culture. And I did have a slightly better rapport with one of the team leaders than the other… but I admired and respected both of them and I’m confident I’d have a wonderful experience with either one. So that’s not really a factor in my decision. I suppose I’ll get started doing some research into which country might be the safer of the two to visit. But I’m not sure it will be a big enough difference in the two to sway my decision. This may end up being a difficult decision to make. But I’m blessed to be in a position where I have a decision like this to make. :)
I was on the phone with my mother today and I was jokingly whining about my “bad day.” The lawn maintenance people woke me up too early with the noise they were making, I grabbed the wrong kind of cereal when I was at the grocery store and I don’t like the kind of cereal I ended up buying, and two lamps I bought recently just don’t go with the decor of my house at all. Then I had to add that if THAT is all I can find to bitch about in my life, then my life is pretty good. And really, it IS. Those really are the worst things I can think of to complain about. So I’d say my life is pretty blessed. And on that note, I have a few photos to share. They are shots I took recently while visiting Multnomah Falls, which is the second-tallest year-round waterfall in the nation. The water drops 620 feet. It’s really beautiful to see.
I recently got a new laptop… a macbook pro. This is my first mac. I’ve been using windows Vista since shortly after it was released and pretty much hate how unstable it is and the almost constant updates from Microsoft trying to keep it secure and running as smoothly as they can get it. My brother in law and sister and a good friend are all mac fans and have been telling me I really need a mac. They’ve used the arguments that they’re more stable, more secure, and have better graphics. I was slightly worried about being able to get used to the differences after being so used to windows based PCs over the past ten years. So I did some research on apple’s online support pages and decided it wouldn’t be all that difficult to get used to. So I ordered my new laptop. Then I worried about if the extra money I spent on it would be worth it… if I’d really be able to see enough differences. Those worries were gone the minute I unpacked the new mac and booted it up. I could virtually instantly see a difference in the graphics. And over the past four days that I’ve owned it, I’ve not ONCE had to reboot because it froze or started acting buggy. Programs are a breeze to install, finding programs I want to use is simple, and it’s not been difficult to get used to at all. I have things customized how I want them on my desktop and dock, and it was very easy to figure out how to do that. I am totally sold on mac!
My sister has a dog named Grace. (She also answers to Gracie, and Gracie Girl) She is just the sweetest dog… very affectionate and gives lots of slobbery dog kisses when she gets to know you. I was at their house last weekend out in the backyard with the dog and my camera… so this is her. :) To see other camera critter entries or play along click here
A few days ago I happened to glance out my sliding glass door that looks out over my patio and the yard. I saw these deer munching on their late afternoon snack and grabbed my camera. Cute little critters, aren’t they?